Dreaming

You know that state of sleep where you are in between awake and asleep? Where you can still hear things around you but dream at the same time? I was in that state the other night. The dream that I was having was making me so happy. I dreamed of a perfect world.

I was living out on my in-laws farm, my husbands favorite place to be, and I was happy. I was happy that I could be apart of my husbands fairytale. Then I started to wonder how am I supposed to be who I am out on this farm? How am I supposed to do the things I have been called to do? Such as spreading the Love Of God. Then I realized I have a perfect opportunity to spread love to my in-laws. I did little things like waking up on sunday mornings to drive an hour to church and praying at each meal. My in laws began to take notice of my actions and started coming to church with Brenden and I.  Everyday after church we would all  go to my parents house for sunday lunch. We were a perfect happy family.

Even though I know perfection does not exist in a family I am fairly excited to see what the future holds. Hopefully dreams do come true!!

Mistakes

The choices we make sometimes take us to places we don’t want to be. I’ve made some pretty stupid choices in my life. Things that I will regret for the rest of my life. It’s funny sometimes how we have regrets and we try to get over them. We pull ourselves apart, searching deep into our souls and after a few months or even years we come out feeling full and refreshed. We move on and life seems to improve and then one day something comes along that reminds you of that stupid choice you made and it feels like you are right back at the start of trying to let go of the regret. I wonder if we ever let go of the regret. Maybe we just think we are over it because we have found other things to occupy our time. I pray that is not the case. I pray that one day I can read certain things or see certain photos and never feel the regret and hurt I am feeling right now. I will hold on to the memory of it though because hopefully the memory of it will keep it from ever happening again. We are supposed to learn from other people’s mistakes, but if we don’t have the memory of the mistake in the back of our minds how will it keep us from walking down that path again? Confused…

Seasons Prt 2- Seasons Of Friendship

I thought friendship was supposed to last forever. Its been my experience however that friendships come and they go. The path of life is not the same for every person and in that comes the hello’s and the goodbye’s. I miss my friends today. Friends I’ve met along this path of life. The ones who have encouraged me and helped shape me. The tea drinking-book loving-movie watching-roadtriping- amazing friends that I have had the privilege of embracing. Here’s a Goodbye to the ones who had to go and a Hello to the ones who are still here and the ones who are yet to come.

Seasons

The frost came and hardened the ground

I feel as though it took my Spirit with it.

Spring will come soon.

My Spirit is ready.

Ready and waiting for new life.

Spring forth oh my soul,

That I may feel once again.